Oct 272014
 

From time to time, I hope to bring you creative writing from men  inside the walls.  The following is prose from a long time 7th Stepper, Jack Ball, who chose not to have this posted anonymously.  It involves his recovery from drug addiction.

knowledgeI am a man who is 59 years old. My name is Jack and I am an addict. I have spent the last 26 years of my life inside a prison made of steel and stone, before that I lived in a prison I carried in my mind. My low self esteem was beaten into me by the hard angry fists of my grandfather. You cant bury something awful inside yourself and then pretend its not there while you fight another war, that makes you break all of your own rules. Maybe I am simply talking about honor, I could not define it in myself, but I recognized it when I saw it in others. I was convinced that as a virtue it had little to do with being reasonable, I knew that absolutely it was as dishonorable for a man to allow himself to be used, as it was for him to use others. I have moments of memory where I slip back into an era that would always be mine, whether I wanted it or not. Where I lived a life of" NOT ENOUGH "… not good enough, not fast enough, not quiet enough, every statement punctuated with violence, I can feel myself begin to sink into a dark recess of pain and grief that will not cauterize with time. I can feel the caution lights start to flash in my head, then I know by the heated energy that rushes through my stomach and surges through my chest and rips open the sealed up places in my brain that I had forgotten or wanted to believe never existed. The hyena will have its way, just as the caution light is locked on red, you cant even have the pleasure of loathing yourself, because the metamorphosis to which you’ve committed yourself is now the only self you have. Everyone has a need for their past, sometimes it pulls harder on you than your future. I have liked the past better than the present or even the hope of the future. There have been times when I have fallen and betrayed my future with my past. The past is like a rodent that eats its way inch by inch through entrails and chews at your liver and stomach, severs tendons from organs until finally when you are alone in the dark it sits gorged and sleek inside your head, its eyes resting, its wet muzzle like a kiss, a promise whispered in the air. I have found in the rooms of recovery, a place of redemption, and a road to a bright future where hope and peace lay, a chance to be part of my own life instead of being ran over by it. There is no trap so deadly as the one we set for ourselves.

I’d like to add one more thing.  Jack recently learned that he will be a free man in less than one year.  Congratulations Jack.  I am confident that you have learned how to make it as a productive, law abiding citizen.

Apr 142011
 

Congratulations to Oregon Department of Corrections (ODOC), to the prisoners who have turned their lives around to become law-abiding members of the community, and to the volunteers that helped them succeed.

14revolving-door2There’s a lot of truth to the popular image of the "revolving door" of U.S. prisons. The first state-by-state survey of repeat criminality, issued today by the Pew Center on the States, found a "stubbornly high" rate of return to prison: 43 percent of inmates released in 2004 and 45 percent of those freed in 1999 were back within three years.

Pew did find some signs of hope from states that use proved methods to avoid sending ex-prisoners back to long periods of custody for minor violations.

Pew’s effort is the first since the U.S. Bureau of Justice Statistics (BJS) discovered in 1994 that about 52 percent of inmates were reincarcerated within three years. The old and new surveys can’t be compared because of differing methodologies.

Nevertheless, a look at states involved in both Pew and BJS surveys found that recidivism rates have been largely stable–around 40 percent.

While the Pew Center stopped short of declaring that the recidivism picture is improving nationally, Adam Gelb, director of the Pew Public Safety Performance Project,  told reporters that several states are experimenting with ways of getting a better return on the billions of dollars spent annually on public safety–what Gelb termed a "triumph of science over sound bytes."

Kansas, Oregon, Utah lead in declining returns

The new report says that three states, Kansas, Oregon, and Utah, led the U.S. in declining returns to prison in the two release groups studied by Pew: 1999 and 2004. Pew called Oregon a "national standout" for reducing recidivism by 31 percent between the 1999 and 2004 release groups.

Oregon stepped up its inmate case management during imprisonment and after release and subjected ex-inmates to "swift, certain consequences for violations" that rarely result in a return to prison…

Inserted from <The Crime Report>

Hat Tip Cure National:

To read the full report in PDF format, click here.

I was quite surprised to learn that Oregon recidivism for 2004 releases had dropped to 22%.  While I would not discount the effectiveness of inmate case management, much of the credit also belongs to the prisoners and volunteers who provide pro-social activities to help prisoners make the changes necessary to survive as productive citizens. 7th Step is provides some of those activities.

Dec 182010
 

I received the following testimonial from Pat Burns, a prisoner at Oregon State Penitentiary, and a member of the 7th Step Club there.

Testimonial by: Patrick Burns, OSP 7th Step Foundation Member

OSPI would like to share my experience with 7th Step in the hopes that others who may find themselves in a similar position can benefit from what the club and its members have to offer. For those of us who are ready to change the reward is well worth the effort.

I first heard of 7th Step when I was in my 20’s and read “My Shadow Ran Fast”, the book by Bill Sands that detailed his time in prison and how he came to see that there was a better way to go than the one he had chosen. Mr. Sands was the founder of 7th Step and his story is an inspiration to all who know it.

At the age of 43 I was sentenced to 70 months for a bank robbery. I also had a few DUII’s on my record, so it should have been obvious to me that the choices I had been making weren’t working out too well for me. Should have been, but wasn’t. My stints in county jails had not provided the wake-up call I needed. Hearing the judge say 70 months was the start of my awakening to say the least. At first I was still upset and not wanting to place the blame where it belonged, which was squarely on my shoulders. Instead I blamed my attorney, the judge, being laid off from work, etc. It’s always easier to point our fingers at others than to face ourselves, isn’t it?

As I settled into my sentence an interesting thing began to happen. I was no longer upset at the others that I had blamed for my troubles, but began to realize that in many ways this prison time was the best thing that could have happened to me. I began to look at my life, not from the perspective of how I had been wronged, but in how I had wronged the people in my life. This was the beginning of the great calm that has come to settle over me.

When I arrived at OSP after having been accepted into the Automotive Technology program, I saw the list of clubs available and noticed that 7th Step was one of them. I signed up right away and was welcomed into the club. I also joined Toastmasters, so now I was involved in two clubs that encouraged growth and where I could share the lessons that I was learning. As part of that growth the third of the 7 steps is my favorite: “Evaluating ourselves by taking an honest self-appraisal, we examined both our strengths and our weaknesses.” And a good way to start that self-appraisal is to ask ourselves “Why are we here?” And I don’t mean the crime you committed. That’s what we were sentenced for, it’s not why we are here.

We are here because of choices. Now granted, in a few cases it was one choice, made in a bad or trying situation. But for most of us, it started with one bad choice and went from there. The first time we decided to skip school, or work, to get high. The first time we cheated on a lover. The first time we took something that wasn’t ours. The first time we made a choice that we knew wasn’t right. That’s when we started chipping away at our moral foundation.

Because after that first one, it got a little easier each time to ignore the voice in our soul, the one that tells us “this is wrong.” But try as we might to ignore that voice, it wouldn’t go away. So that led a lot of us to medicate our guilt away with drugs or alcohol. Being drunk or stoned or high not only shut the voice up but also made it a lot easier to make more choices that weren’t right. Then the guilt hits and the cycle starts again. If only that voice would go away! And that is the answer to “why are we here?”

Now that we know that, we can start to work on that honest self- appraisal that I feel is the key to our growth. Acknowledge the choices and mistakes that have been made, and wherever possible, make amends. Realize that you and you alone are responsible for your choices, and take strength in the power that realization gives to you. Take steps to prevent your weaknesses from controlling your actions, and seek help with that through the people that you know you can count on, your 7th Step brothers and sisters being an excellent place to start.

Is this going to be easy? No. It takes constant effort to do the right thing. It takes courage to have real principles, especially when you are surrounded by those who will tell you that it’s not cool, or you’re not being tough. But those of us that are working on doing the right thing know how tough it is. So I am asking for all of us to start doing the right thing today, follow your steps and answer the question “why am I here?”

It’s hard to comment in the face of the raw courage Pat has had to make effort to change and to share it unselfishly with others.  I know what he went through, because my experience was similar in making the move from denial and blaming others to accountability.  People like Pat is the reason that we, on the outside, are proud to assist them in their steps to freedom.

Oct 092010
 

Yesterday was a very special day for 7th Step.  While we are happy to help any prisoner transition into the community, our primary activity is supporting 7th Step members.  It had been over two years since one of our own was released from prison.  So Terry, Sandi and I were thoroughly pleased to be standing outside OSP yesterday morning watching a new dawn of freedom for Danny Walker.

Danny-freedom

Danny went to prison in 1989, a year before I did.  I came to know him well over the years before my own release in 1999.  He worked hard to change himself, and yesterday, he received the reward for his efforts.  After twenty one years, he walked out the door, a free man.  It was an honor to be the first to shake his hand.  (He’s the tall one with the ear to ear grin.)

Danny and Tom

Terry and Sandy were thrilled as well, but Danny had  the biggest smiles of all.

Danny and the ladies

I asked him how he felt, and he was clearly overwhelmed, as all he could say is “really good.”   We took him to breakfast and introduced him to real food again.  The pleasure on his face was most evident.  His quote of the day was, “It’s surreal.  I can look out the window, and there are no bars.”

Sandi and I took him to Portland, helped him check in with his Parole Officer, ran several errands with him, so necessary for that first day, and got him settled in temporary housing.

Danny faces some major challenges ahead.  He will have to find work, no easy task in an economy ravaged by greed.  He will have to find a permanent residence.  And most of all, he will have to learn to manage his own time.  In addition, the world has changed dramatically.  He has much to learn.  7th Step will be there to support him.  That’s what we do.  Helping prisoners learn to change in prison and helping former prisoners establish themselves as productive citizens makes our communities safer places to live.

Jul 152010
 

In a recent guest editorial contrast, Joshua Marquis, Clatsop County District Attorney, presented  a highly vindictive view of justice.

Marquis is most famous as Oregon’s most extreme proponent of the death penalty.  His well known support for Measure 11 is also self-serving, because it gives him, as a prosecutor, more power over sentencing than the judge, because he decides whom he will prosecute under Measure 11, and whom he will prosecute under reduced charges.  I found his deceptive attacks on several fine organizations particularly offensive.

Paul Solomon, Director of Partnership for Safety and Justice, and Ron Chase, Director of Sponsors, responded to it, presenting a far more enlightened restorative view of justice.

15solomon The July 4 guest viewpoint by Josh Marquis, “In advocating for the inmates, let’s not forget about the crime,” requires a response.

We believe that people should be held accountable for their actions. We have worked with people in the criminal justice system for more than 30 years combined, and anecdotally can tell you that the vast majority of the people we have worked with do not forget about the crime that they committed. Even if they wanted to forget, criminal background checks for employment and housing, offender registration laws and supervision requirements make it very difficult for people to lose sight of their criminal histories and create myriad barriers to successful re-entry.

Marquis would have us believe that organizations such as the Partnership for Safety and Justice, Sponsors, Citizens United for Rehabilitation of Errants, and Better People are swimming in money and have no concern for the suffering and trauma experienced by many crime victims. Nothing could be further from the truth.

The groups Marquis criticizes are the very organizations that are seeking cost-effective solutions to crime that support the efforts of survivors of crime, people convicted of crime and the families of both to rebuild their lives. They advocate for the creation of policies that are less dependent on the over-reliance of incarceration — and actually make us safer.

As far as “swimming in money” is regarded, that got a good laugh. It has been a constant struggle over the years to simply keep Sponsors afloat. If Marquis would like to examine Sponsors’ budget, he is more than welcome. It should also be noted that Sponsors Inc. has never received a dime of Soros Foundation money, although we appreciate the suggestion and will look into it.

In fact, Sponsors contracts for state community corrections funds with Lane County to provide re-entry services to those being released from state prison and returning to Lane County. People in the “high-risk” (to re-offend) population served by Sponsors generally arrive homeless and indigent — and leave drug free, in compliance with release conditions, with stable employment and permanent, sustainable housing. There is no better service we can provide victims than to do our best to encourage those with criminal histories to change their ways and become productive community members.

Marquis would also have us believe that groups such as Crime Victims United and the Oregon Anti-Crime Alliance are poor, ineffective organizations “operating on a wing and a prayer.”

This analysis is misleading and disingenuous. CVU, led by Steve Doell, is a highly influential organization that has deftly and successfully lobbied for “tough on crime” sentencing enhancements and challenged any efforts to slow the growth of our state corrections system, which now ranks No. 1 in the country in the percentage of general fund dollars spent on prisons.

15Chase Marquis also neglected to mention the Oregon Anti-Crime Alliance, staffed by Ballot Measure 11 author Kevin Mannix and former Lane County District Attorney Doug Harcleroad. Their role should not be overlooked, either. Unlike the organizations named by Marquis, Mannix and his ballot measure campaigns have been extremely well-funded, having been the beneficiary of hundreds of thousands of dollars from out-of-state millionaire Loren Parks.

Measure 11 is the biggest driver of corrections spending in the state. Mandatory minimum sentencing schemes have forced a one-size-fits-all approach to dealing with the complex issue of crime and criminality.

Marquis points to a declining crime rate as a justifier for mandatory minimums. In actuality, crime rates have been dropping in Oregon and across the country for many years.

Criminologists will tell you that incarceration is but one factor in analyzing the fluctuating rates of crime. Age and economics have as much to do with crime rates, if not more, than incarceration. Furthermore, other states have realized a drop in crime while decreasing their prison population.

In these difficult economic times we need to spend our precious state resources wisely. As the state’s corrections director has said, our current prison growth “is on an unsustainable trajectory.”

While the vindictive justice advocated by Marquis, Mannix and Doell, among others, may provide a sense of satisfaction or a false sense of security, it does little to create a system that is cost efficient and fair while holding people accountable, and it does nothing to change their behavior.

It is unfortunate that Parks doesn’t use his millions to fund evidence-based programs proven to reduce future crime. The state’s ability to fund these programs has been reduced by the mandate for prison beds, which has consumed the lion’s share of the correction’s budget…

Inserted from <The Register Guard>

I completely agree with the restorative view.  Corrections has two functions.  The first is to protect our communities from the predations of dangerous criminals.  The second is to reform dangerous criminals into citizens who will no longer threaten our communities.

Vindictive justice does nothing to further either of those purposes.  Prisoners warehoused under inhumane conditions return to society both more bitter and better educated in crime then they were when they entered prison.  Since almost all prisoners eventually are released, are these the prisoners you want moving into your neighborhoods?

Restorative justice is a far better solution.  Prisoners, housed under humane conditions, encouraged and provided tools with which to transform their lives are far more likely to become law-abiding citizens.

Speaking personally, I am grateful organizations like Partnership for Safety and Justice, CURE, Sponsors, and, of course, our own 7th Step Foundation for the assistance and inspiration they provided me to transform my own life when I was in prison.  Never does a day pass that I do not remember my own crimes with shame and regret, but I am proud of the person I have become, maintaining my own freedom as a pro-social citizen for over eleven years since my release, volunteering in Oregon State Penitentiary and in my community, through 7th Step, to help other prisoners change and reintegrate, and co-facilitating a weekly therapy group for former prisoners.  I consider myself an example of what restorative justice can do.  Had I found only such attitudes as those of Mr. Marquis, I doubt I would have succeeded.

Mar 082010
 

From Time to time we hope to bring you stories about former prisoners who have made it in the free world. Dave Dahl is a great place to start.

 

DavesKillerBread When I hear the phrase “organic bread,” I think of a funky, hairy person in sandals toiling away proudly in a heated adobe hut someplace in, oh, say, Vermont. I usually don’t think of a methamphetamine addict — does he even eat? — let alone a convict serving hard prison time. Which is why I was surprised to discover that one of the best commercially available organic breads — in my opinion — is manufactured by a convicted felon and former meth addict from Oregon named Dave Dahl.

Burned by the overabundance of starchy, cakey, sugary, overprocessed white bread that found itself on my dinner table, I quit bread for six months, but was lured back in recent weeks by Dave’s Killer Bread, founded in 2005 by Dahl after he had finished serving the last of 15 years in the big house. (His brother Glenn, who owns Nature Bake breads, managed to avoid prison and co-founded Dave’s Killer Bread with him. They are the Whitey and Billy Bulger of bread-making.) Dahl was a dealer and a serious thug, according to the video on his Web site, and after he got out the last time, he decided to return to his family roots and bake bread. I defy you not to cry, or place bets he’ll be on Oprah soon, while watching his story.

Compared to other commercially available loaves, Dave’s Bread has more protein, fewer carbohydrates and a little less sodium than many. It would be easy to think this is a crunchy gimmick — ex-con does good with organic flour, insuring the triumph of the crunchy Northwest — but Dave’s Killer Bread is actually the best bread I’ve ever bought in a supermarket. (Mine came from a Costco in Boise, Idaho.) The Killer Good Seed loaf is made with organic whole flax, sunflower and black sesame seeds. Unlike other nutty breads I’ve tried, Good Seed manages to remain light and chewy but sturdy enough to hold a substantial sandwich filling. Dahl’s line also includes Killer Blues Bread, rolled in blue cornmeal; Killer Sin Dawg, which combines raisins and oats in a whole-grain cinnamon roll; and Killer Powerseed Bread, sweetened with fruit juice.

There is only one disappointment with Dave’s Killer Bread; it is not available in stores east of Utah. New Yorkers can only buy it online, which sort of goes against the whole notion of organic, earth-loving bread…

Inserted from <NY Times>

I first tasted Dave’s bread at a 7th Step meeting at Oregon State Penitentiary.  The bread is as remarkable as Dave’s own transformation.